i wanna blog.
but i always feel like i have no time to blog and keep looking at the damn clock.
then i'd go in my room and try to get prepared, then i realized that i have no activities today.
then i sit back on my computer chair, and look at the clock again, and think about what to do next.
It's becoming a habit, that i'm always busy.
It's becoming a habit, that i make my freedays un-free.

sigh.
today.
my uncle passed away.

I don't usually talk to him. Not even on Chinese New year or Christmas.
sometimes he wouldn't even turn up on any event.
but yeah, he's still my beloved uncle.
Everyone knows he's not so well-to-do, yet he gives us $50 on chinese new year.
he's just a taxi driver, who got stabbed once by a cruel passenger.

He's just a taxi driver.
Who's got two kids that are bright and young.
A wife at home not working.
A three-room-flat at toapayoh.
What has he done to fate that has he to deserve?

sigh.
I wonder where i get the energy to blog this up.
I'm trembling.
But i'm not scared or cold.

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alrighty, this is Yuvin's wish and my command.
I will blog a really short comment to everyone in my class that i will miss. :D
So that nobody will be left out, 2e2-ians, you're not rejected my me!
Krystal will always love you!
:D

1. Xinyee
Thank you xinyee for always being such a funny person in our class, energetic every single day and always talking non-stop. Always scolding people without offence or anger, very innocent yet very laughable. aiya don't know how to explain. But your shining smile is appreciated by everyone!

2. Cindy
Thank you being there for me right in the beginning of my life in Zhonghua although i have neglected you much. You have always been so independant and sometimes quite hilarious (horny). But yet so funny.

3. Claire
Thank you for being the class gossip queen! :DDD. you are always updated on everything. and now's your turn! :B being claire-ver and everything, you are loved by everyone in our class and most populated! You brighten the whole atmosphere and always very chatty towards the teachers!

4. Elaine
Thank you for being my friend when i was friendless. Sometimes you make me laugh when i was sad, and telling me about your life and all that stuff and sharing with me all your problems and happiness, you are very much appreciated. :)

5. Eleanor
Thank you for being the chirp behind the class and always so laughable. Don't worry, your chinese will surely improve big time! :D you are always talking funny stuff to people to make them laugh. A very loyal and good friend too, you are appreciated by all! :D

6. Wanfei
Thank you wanfei lots&lots because you are always out there to take care of me. e.g telling me who has been mean to me and asking me to keep a look0ut for them, or telling me that i should not befriend someone because they have been bullying me. I don't know why, but by that i must really thank you because your warning have gave me the correct permanent decisions. And you are also really a sweetie because you have given that mean teacher a teacher's day gift. And last but not least, thanks for giving my that chain of paper cranes! It was BEE-YOO-TEE-FOOL. :D

7. Jacquelyn
Thank you Jacquelyn for always being so friendly in the class. especially when i felt lonely, you quickly came up to me and be my friend for the day. You are always available for everyone to be a friend! You always say HELLO to everyone who walks into the class and very enthusiastic always. the HELLO that you said made everyone a sense of happiness that they are wanted! :D & always encouraging us to go guzheng everytime. :D you are very very appreciated by everyone! Without your clique, the class wouldn't have bonded so well! :D

8. Yinwei
Thank you Yinwei for always being so informative and very funny in a realistic way. You can be anybody's friend anytime! :D and you can chat with someone non-stop all the way :D Now that i'm working at punggol plaza KFC, you can come and visit me anytime liao and kachiao me because i am uber bored! D: you will always be the class handtwister and very,very street-smart. ;D you are appreciated by all! :)

10. Simin
Thank you Simin for being such a friend when i was friendless also and always being a great leader in all our projects we have done so far. You are always very updated and warn me of my blurness because i wasn't aware. Without you i would have forgotten this, forgotten that liao. You are always so attentive during lessons and very concious about every work that you do. you will tell me what to do and perfect everything in our work. you are appreciated by everyone esp as a very loyal monitress! :D

11. Yvonne
Thank you Yvonne for being such a friendly and lively girl beside me during class! When i had problems with my homework i can ask you for help and you are always not selfish to share your knowledge with us! you will laugh at the correct time, and be serious at the correct time too! And you are always so sweet and not snobbish at all. You love 2e2 lots&lots even when we make you angry. that's something we all have to learn from you! :D

12. QiJun
Thank you QiJun for always being sooooooo funny and also laughing very funnily. Whenever you laugh, the whole clique will laugh also. Very playful and very hyper. you are the first person that i see that laughs so funny. your laughter and hilariousness fills the classroom :D you are appreciated by all! :D

13. Jetaime
Thank you Jetaime for being the reddest person behind me me always because you're always playing with Linyuan and Xinmei. you can always start and stop hyper-ing anytime you want! Your gayness have made the corner so hyper and always 'crying'! Continue to excel in your maths and you counsellor-ing because you make a very good enthusias! :D you are very very appreciated by all! :D

14. Xinmei
Thank you Xinmei for always telling me when to move and when not to move during assembly because you are always so funny behind me! and you always want to sit with Linyuan! You are sooo sweet and helpful and so funny in our class. :D Always laughing together with Jetaime and telling us jokes! Very pure yet gay. You know when to laugh and when to get serious. I've never seen you angry or sad before. And that's what i aim to be! You are very very appreciated by everyone esp in your clique! :D

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To be continued...

I simple have no mood to type any longer.
I feel so empty.
I feel like i'm the only one left in this world.
I feel drawn away...
I just need a somebody to love and to be loved, not Marcus anymore.
Just somebody, just anybody.